Last month, I had an anniversary of sorts. I joined the
ranks of the admitted at Providence Hospital in Everett on Tuesday, June 1,
2010. On the morning of June 2, just as I stabbed a fork into my deeply desired
hospital pancakes, my neurologist walked in to give me a definite diagnosis of
Relapsing-Remitting Multiple Sclerosis. Breakfast was over.
Although I just had my 2nd “anniversary” last
month, I approximate that I’ve had this degenerative disease for at least 18
years. It stayed mostly hidden until manifesting unmistakably when my 5th child,
Rose, was 6 months old. I used to separate my life into two sections: before
kids, after kids. Now I can’t help but separate my life into two new sections: before
MS, after MS.
I’ve compiled information, some from various websites and
some from memory, into a “report” so that my loved ones can learn about the
disease that guides most of my activities. I truly hope everyone I intend this
for will read it, and perhaps even pass it along to others who may wish to
learn about Multiple Sclerosis.
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Multiple Sclerosis (MS) is an incurable disease involving
the immune system and the central nervous system. The immune system defends the
body from attack by micro-organisms such as bacteria and viruses. In the case
of MS, the immune system attacks part of the body itself: the nerves. MS occurs when the
protective sheath (myelin) around the nerve fibers in the brain and spinal cord
becomes damaged, causing random patches called plaques or lesions. These
patches distort and interrupt the messages that are sent along these nerves.
‘Sclerosis’ means scar, and the disease is labeled ‘multiple’ because the
damage usually occurs at a number of points. The effects are varied; no two
people with MS will have exactly the same symptoms. MS is not contagious, but
it is progressive and unpredictable. The trigger to the disease has not yet
been discovered, but it is thought that genetic and environmental factors are
involved. Research so far has found that in nearly two-thirds of cases, a
relapse has been preceded by a viral illness. However, many treatments and
medications are available to ease the symptoms and modify the course of the
disease.
An estimated 2,500,000 people around the world have multiple
sclerosis. These people are generally:
*Young adults – symptoms first appear between the ages of 20
and 40 years.
*Female – 70% of people with MS are female.
*Caucasian – 98% of people with MS are Caucasian.
*Living in temperate zones – MS is generally more common
between latitudes 40° and 60° north and south of the equator.
*Have a relative with MS – between 10 and 20% of people with
MS have a relative with the disease, suggesting a genetic link.
More than 50 symptoms are linked to MS, and each person
develops symptoms differently. They are varied and unpredictable. MS can damage
the central nervous system in many different locations, which means no two
people will share exactly the same symptoms or exactly the same intensity of
symptoms. Many of the symptoms mimic problems that occur with other diseases,
and usually come and go. This can create misunderstanding or dubiousness on the
part of people who deal with others who have MS, since a person with MS could
feel “just fine” in the morning and barely be able to function by afternoon, or
vice versa.
Some of the more common MS symptoms include:
*Blurred or double vision (from optical neuritis)
*Numbness or pins and needles in
extremities (“parasthesia”)
*Weakness in the arms or legs
*Loss of balance
*Tendency to drag one foot (“foot drop”)
*Loss of coordination
*Extreme fatigue
*Continence problems
*Hand tremors
*Loss of mobility
*Problems with or changes in memory functioning
*Speech difficulties and slurring
*Spasticity
MS has different forms and progression. Some people with MS
may become seriously disabled. Others may have one or two attacks and then
remain relatively symptom free for the rest of their lives. The frequency and
severity of attacks cannot be predicted.
(I experience varying degrees of parasthesia, weekness in my arms and legs, loss of coordination, fatigue, memory loss, and speech difficulties...so far.)
There are four different classifications of MS:
There are four different classifications of MS:
*Relapsing–Remitting (RRMS) – 85% of people with MS start
with this type of disease course. Acute episodes of neurological symptoms
occur, which last for days, weeks or months before completely or partially
resolving. The intervals between attacks can vary widely but, on average, occur
every one to two years.
*Primary Progressive (PPMS) – affects around 10 % of people
with MS from the onset. These individuals experience no relapses but suffer a
gradual increase of disability, which does NOT recover or reverse.
*Secondary Progressive (SPMS) – occurs in individuals who
started with Relapsing–Remitting MS, but their relapses diminish in frequency
or cease altogether. HOWEVER, disability continues to accumulate. As of several
years ago, about 50% of people who start with Relapsing–Remitting MS develop
Secondary Progressive MS after 15 years. However, with the use of disease
modification drugs, this percentage has dramatically decreased.
*Progressive Relapsing (PRMS) – this occurs in about 5% of
people from the outset, with relapses occurring and disability accumulating
between relapses.
Diagnosis and treatment:
Most of the symptoms of MS can also be caused by other
conditions and do not automatically mean a diagnosis of MS. As yet, there is no
single test to diagnose MS. A number of specialized tests may be
necessary:
*magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) of the brain and spinal
cord, usually with and without an injection of contrast dye
*a neurological exam to observe functioning of the cranial
nerves (these control the senses, as well as how you talk and swallow) in
coordination, strength, reflexes, and sensation
*a visual evoked potential test (VEP), during which electrodes
are attached to the scalp and connected to an electroencephalograph (EEG) to
record brainwaves in response to a series of checkerboard patterns displayed on
a screen
*a spinal tap, during which a needle is inserted into the
spine at a specific spot between the vertebrae to collect cerebrospinal fluid
(CSF). The fluid is sent for evaluation, looking for the presence of
oligoclonal bands (an increased number of certain antibodies) -- an indicator
of increased immune activity in the spinal fluid
*blood tests to rule out other diseases.
(I had all the tests done, and I undergo an MRI each year in
July to check any progression.)
There are two basic rules for diagnosing MS:
*The person must have had at least two relapses (an episode
where symptoms were present). These episodes must have been separated by at
least one month.
*There must be more than one lesion on the brain or spinal
cord.
(I have had three episodes, but my “big one” was the attack
that led to my diagnosis. As of last year, I have 10 lesions in my brain and
one large one on my spinal cord.)
Diagnostic Categories:
*Negative: Negative means negative. You don’t have MS. It is
possible for the doctor to give this diagnosis only when another definite
diagnosis is made that can account for your symptoms.
*Possible: This means that you may have symptoms that look
like MS, but your tests are normal. No other diagnosis which accounts for the
symptoms has been confirmed.
*Probable: Many people fall into this category when they are
first seen by a neurologist. You may have symptoms that look like MS and have
had two separate episodes separated by at least a month, but normal findings on
an MRI. You could also have an MRI that showed only one lesion in your brain or
spine. In this case, your doctor will probably recommend repeating the MRI
after a certain period of time (for instance, 3 months) to see if any other
lesions appear. Depending on how certain your doctor is that you really do have
MS, he may recommend that you consider starting an early therapy.
*Definite: Your case fits the diagnostic criteria above. You
have had at least two attacks, separated in time, plus at least two areas of
demyelination.
(My diagnosis is definite.)
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A popular saying in the MS community is, “I have MS, but MS
doesn’t have me!” This is a bit too Susie Sunshine for the likes of me, because
you bet I feel like it has me—often. I know what all those people are trying to
say, however: don’t let the MS diagnosis define WHO YOU ARE. That’s a tall
order for some, including me. My symptoms are a burden on my family, harming my
mothering and my marriage. I must fight like crazy to keep it from doing real
damage. If I give in to the moods, pain, discomfort, disabilities, etc., I let
it hurt everyone. So my job is to acknowledge it, communicate what I need, and
not let it take over. Tricky!
Mara, Thank you for putting such a loveable face on a disease that many people do not know very much about. I have actually had several people in my life with MS and have seen the struggles as well as the little triumphs. I know that you are so blessed with faith and family. I can tell from reading your posts that you are a wonderful mom to your lucky kids and they will be a blessing to you. I am also back in school myself and my most recent class was way more info on the brain and nervous system than a marriage and family counselor(my goal) should ever need, but through the reading of various neurological diseases, I was thinking of you and praying for the researchers who are making some progress on MS treatments. Please continue to share your experiences with us and know that the Scalise family holds you always in our prayers! hugs, kellyann
ReplyDeleteMara: I just read this and I'm so impressed with your writing. You are clear, authentic, and so knowledgeable. Thank you for sharing all this information so we can continue to understand what you're going through.
ReplyDeleteI think you are doing a beautiful job of not letting MS "have you." Keep up the holy work.
Angela